My head, my friendship.. what do i do wrong?

I skipped school today, i wanted to revise the whole day for my math exam which is tomorrow..

Lately i'm just having argues with my best friend, i know, i know i complain a lot, but then he shouldn't just end it all with a last sentence and go off. It hurts damn much...

Maybe it's because i'm afraid that i won't get to talk to him? And maybe it's his stress from the a-levels aswell?
Whatever it is, it doesn't do us good. And yea, i DO realise it's me most of the time that is damn complaining but hey, i feel terrible not saying what's in my mind, he should be knowing by now :c

/endless rant

So, i'm just clueless..
Sure, we're okey the very next moment but i have these holes in my heart that make me afraid of telling/asking him anything because i'm afraid it might get him off mood more or something..
Our friendship is held together by a thread, and i feel something is trying to cut that thread..

*sob* what am i doing wrong? Maybe i should just stop my worries? But then again, should i just stand there and do nothing?


Argh, im just such a drama-girl. Why cn't he just take my hand, hug me tight and smile? It's all i want, really.
As long as he's okey, i am aswell. But if he's down, i'm just broken because i know i might fail to fix him.


I need some advice...